Until 25 December 2008

ok
im on leave now.. finishing my cuti
in kepong - my small room
missing my family especially dear zakirah- my niece
she is so so cute as now she'll imitate any face expression u make
just had a small fight with someone - which i dont intend of having
been trying hard to keep everything in peace
i dont know.. im just not a robot whom can be programmed to always ok / tenang
uwaaa.. i wish i am- if it is what it takes to have a peaceful life
im messing my life with things i shudnt hv yet doing/ think
so stupid la dey! i AM!
uhuhuhuh..

continuing life like what it's already is or its time for a change..big one?
i want to migrate!!!now!-though i know its not solving anything haha

p/s: nervouse to start year 2009..especially working life..jeng~jeng~jeng~

Helppp

i am so so so disturbed..
shoot the stars?
run 10 km?
tadi dah skinned a tenggling.. still disturbed jgak..
what can i do..uwaaaaa?!!!
confuse : feeling vs thinking
run run run run

is there any other way ?
if cant control your head from remembering somethng you dont want to
especially things that make u sad n embarrased? deng!

Work + Forest + Animals = Happiness

cant imagine my life without being near to nature
i feel like incomplete..
sounds poyo? exxagerate?
believe it ..its true
am so content with my job now.. minus the politics (everywhere also same aite?)
i cant put into words how i feel every morning coming to work
frankly..i look forward to go to work-which sounds so untrue
its true!
come here people if you doubt it
the entrance is moderate.. not a 2milion gate or gerbang
the road is not made from gold.. but the surroundings.. precious!
big trees standing tall welcoming you in-though sometimes i feel bersalah bring carbon monoxide to the area..but cant help it -for now (my office quite far inside)
the air?.. u cant get it elsewhere in kuala lumpur.. or maybe its only what my brain thinks-i dont care.. at 8am in the morning u cant get the same feeling of fresh air and peace at any other site of KL trust me..
this place is where i belong..
though some1 so glamorous onced said - 'owh, tak glamour la eh keje kat situ'
like i care.. all i know im contributing something to nature.. so againts anthropocentric + 100% consequentialist.. at least pls.. be a deontologist (all ethics!)
you all afraid to die from natural disaster..but r u doing something?-
wake up people...-i dunt want to start anything here.. think yourself what u willingly do
and 1 more.. if u hit a cat or dog or even a squirrel, pls don just let them lie there.. smashed by others vehicle.. have some mercy.. move them aside , bury them is better..
am i crazy n getting so poyo?
whatever..
i am not only a preacher, swear!
hoping for a better day and life
~xoX0~

sanctity of life

talking about sanctity-life
smells like anger and frustration in this post
haha!
yeah something happened 2 days back and it was the most UNFORGETTABLE and UNACCEPTABLE incident to happen
unfortunately i cant spell it out here although feels like venting it all out
maybe readers for this post might get d wrong impression later
so better not to
it is simple..especially when we are all grown up already
always have to have 'cara' in sending a message to others
if u r too blunt n harsh u might either --
1- make some1 cry and so embarrassed
2- make some1 ran away from u forever
3- beaten by ! hahaha
4- etc

what ever it is, d damage is done!
now its time for healing a.k.a erasing d memory
this part is so-so hard.. dont u agree?
for me.. it took months and sometimes a year to totally forget about something
a few solutions we can take is by--
1- rationalize the situation and be ok after that (no emotions-usually girls not good at this part)
2- ran away from the problem (totally not attach with anything related)
3- rationalize and take some time alone and later be ok
4- do something stupid to overshadow the damage
5- cry cry cry and cry
6- etc

the holiness of life is d direct interpretation of sanctity of life
im saying our life is precious and it is OURS
no scars, no parasites, no evil-devil, no!
but there u go.. we cant maintain d sanctity we wished for
although we do respect others..
am hoping for the best..
for now i think i will go for solution no. 2 or 4 and am doing no.5
haha!
~xoX0~

poker face

admit it.. inspired by Lady Gaga song..
as some people said her songs is some kind of the new era song
i can say..agree! but unfortunately not for all age level..sorry~
for me her songs is a mixture of Gwen stefani + Chirtina Aguilera
but yeah with her own style n personality,
the attraction and vibe gave such influence to the listeners especially ME..lol!
u guys shud try to listen to her songs : poker face, just dance, paparazzi
not to forget the lyrics of poker face;
although its kinda confusing but i understand a lil bit of them
poker face= not telling and showing the real emotion of hers
suits me very well as i like mystery and secrecy (that can be isolating)
making life more interesting!
like men-prefer to enjoy the pleasure of imagining girls..(say girls on bread?) haha
ok this is the new beginning of my blog..
hopefuly wont get bored of doing this
catch ya'll later
~x0Xo~